Father and daughter is a "complex one, and all the more so given that it has perhaps been explored less than other relationships." Unfortunately, the kind of relationship that I have had with my father is the disappointed daughter.
I feel as though that
my father was a stranger that I met on the street because of the type of
relationship that I had with him. It's a chilly relationship between
the pair of us, and I am quite aware of this. I became distanced with
him when I was 13 which was in the Summer of 1989. I grieved for the
father that I could not have for many years. When I was growing up, I
experienced all of the symptoms of father-shaped gap. Yet this has also
made me slightly distant with other people, especially men, who I always
fear will disappoint me. I feel persistent regret at the fact that I
missed the opportunity to know my father because he divorced my mother
and remarried when I was 13. This created a negative image of him in my
mind that was not impacted by my mother, but rather my observations that
I had when I was at NationHouse, A-T Seban Mesut and Ausar Auset
Society.
Inside there was a little girl who doesn't understand
where it all went wrong. My father has failed to do his job and rarely
expressed his feeling towards me as I grew older. The bond between the
two of us has been lost due to his reasons and choices that he made when
I was a student at NationHouse. As a result, I became more disappointed
and expressed my disappointment. It is strange feeling because as a
fatherless woman, I felt that my voice with him was being ignored as my
voice that I share within my community.
I do not understand the concept of why men lack respect for woman and refuse to hear what we have to say!